You know it's funny I have never really had to deal with loss in my life. My husbands grandparents died while we've been married, but I didn't really know them, my great grandparent died when I was still a child, even though I knew them, I was also raised that if you have had a good long life, then there is nothing to grieve. When our old dog passed away I was sad, but it was his time. Only to remember and be grateful. I have never lost a friend, parent, grandparent, or sibling. Life doesn't always make since, but I know without a doubt there is a plan, I guess all of this was to make us stronger.
On August 15th one of the worst things I can imagine happened to our little family, we lost Tae. For those of you who don't know she is our dog, and maybe this all seems dramatic, however, then you didn't know Tae and you didn't know what role she played in my life. I have been married for almost 7 years, I have wanted to start a family for about 5 of those, but my husband hasn't been ready. We got Tae around the same time my motherly need came on. She has been my baby for 5 and 1/2 years. I know a dog is not a human, but it doesn't mean I didn't completely love her.
Anyone who cares to know what happened, she was attacked by 3 Malamutes at the same time, I reacted instantly, however in the time it took for me to get to her they had punctured her lung and torn in to her abdomen. We took her to the emergency vet, the lung was spewing blood along with air witch means more problems. The Dr got her out of pain and discussed the options with us. I have always said a dog is not a human, I cannot afford to loose my house for the medical bills, I also think it is wrong to let them suffer. IF they could have saved her, it would have been thousands of dollars (like over 10) as well of months of pain and suffering for her. I couldn't do it to her she is so innocent and I love her, but I will not be a hypocrite to my own beliefs.
So this is for her, my baby girl that I lost so suddenly,
the first day we brought her home, April 9th 2005
she was so little!
She loved Elvis instantly
Her first puppy Sony chillin' with her and Elvis
She was playing in a big pile of leaves, we would toss her in and she would find her way out, sounds mean, but she loved it!
Second litter, Pearl, Ruby, Olive, and Farley
Third litter, she was such a great little mom, she has sooo much personality!
She is so obedient, she was so great about hanging while we did whatever. She was such and attention hog, heck she would even stretch herself out to try and touch Ryan and I at the same time even it was tail an nose. She was soo sneaky, as she tried to to climb closer and closer to your face, before you knew it she was suddenly there. You should have seen her play fetch, she loved her rope that was half her size and she would get it, kill it and bring it back over and over until she could hardly walk straight. She would sit on my lap and comfort me when I cried, she was my baby girl and I loved her.
4 comments:
That is so sad! I too share your philosophy about dogs and medical bills. I also know how much a dog can mean! I had a dog from the time I was an infant and he was a puppy until we both were 16. It's been 9 years and I still can get choked up about it if I think about his death too much. And watching Marley and Me made me SOB like a baby. I'm so sorry for your loss!
sorry for your loss. what a cute dog
Candice, I'm so sorry for your loss. Pets are still an important part of your family and it's ok to grieve for them. If you need anything let me know.
That's so sad. Sorry about your loss. :( She looked like a sweetheart.
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